Be invisible

Don't be you
Be him
Forget what you are
Forget what you were
Be invisible
Be nothing

If this is the only way
to keep you from ignoring me
i would like to continue on like this
and fade away into the nothingness...

Love is a lot like gambling
but instead of money
you gamble with your heart
if you win, it's your game
if you lose, you lose it all

Please remind yourself this
don't ask him anything
he don't wanna hear
he won't wanna answer
let him breathe
if that's what he wants
give him space
if that's what he wants

don't ask
don't speak
be nothing....
forget the questions
knock on God's door instead
twice He reminded you
that He loves you....

Diet & Exercise Scams

This website tells you to "Just say no to diet scams" but on the same page itself, on a different column, it's telling you about "the skinny on celebrity diets". What is it trying to tell you? On one hand say no to diet scams, on the other, they are trying to pull you into reading celebrity diets. Celebrities are different than us, they need their looks on the screen, it's their source of income. We do not have jobs like them, some of us are engineers, lecturers, journalist. We don't need our looks to bring money in, but we need to stay healthy.

And on another website puts in your mind that the fitter you are, the happier you will become. Aren't people supposed to be happy with themselves, how they look? But no, the media puts in your mind that you need to look like this in order for you to be happy. It does not make sense at all. So everybody is losing weight, just to look good for some other people. Why can't one look good and feel good about themselves. If you have trouble with your weight, then exercise to stay healthy, instead of thinking you must lose that weight of yours to look good for someone else.

Consciously or unconsciously, women especially, are pressured to lose their weight because it is planted in their mind they need to look like the people on TV to be happy, and feel good about themselves. It's good to exercise, but exercise to stay healthy, not because it will make you happy. Celebs need to look good to earn money. Normal people like us who aren't celebrities use our brain to bring the money in. Ignoring the media is the best way to be happy about yourself. Websites targeted the women because they know that women wants to look good for their men, but it is wrong to say they need to do the celeb diet and get fit like those women on their ads. Come on, these are advertisement company together with advertisement people. If they look normal like us, people will think their scam won't work.

So please, thread carefully... I'm just saying, be healthy and happy even without those diet and exercise scams. They are making money on your low self-esteem. They're not going to benefit you no matter how much weight you lose, because in the end, it is about how you feel inside. Even if you already look anorexic, scams like this will make you feel ugly.

Prayers for the broken heart.

Dear Lord,

I look for you in time of truth, I look for you in time of sorrow, I look for you in time of sadness, I look for you in time of joy and I thanked you every day for the days that you had given me.

I tried everything I can to keep him happy, I tried everything I can to make him happy, I tried everything I can to be the best. But every time I tried, I found myself in tears asking for your presence, wishing You to hear me now.

Are you looking down from above? Are you seeing my sadness? Your child, your own creation. What have I done wrong, Lord I ask You for forgiveness.

All I want is to not feel this. It's painful Lord, it really is. I don't want to go back to what I had to feel all 8 months of last year. It's too painful. He doesn't believe in me at all. He still blames me for the things that I did, yet, I don't see anything happening.

God, please give me strength to survive this. I need it now. I want nothing more than to be okay. I don't ask you for wealth. I just asked for this...

Amen.

The little things my ass

Everything was taken and measured as if it was gold in the beginning
Now that we're in the middle, everything is taken for granted
Towards the end, tried to go back to gold again
But not long after that, it was treated as if it was silver again

5 minutes or an hour... it doesn't matter.

Anything can happen in 5 minutes.
A person could be killed in 5 minutes
An accident can happen in 5 minutes.
What you said can hurt others in 5 minutes.
A girl can be kidnapped in 5 minutes.
You can change your mind in 5 minutes.
And in just 5 minutes time, a precious thing could be lost.

The worst part is, you wish you had never of those 5 minutes...

Because the 5 minutes you had lost, you will never have it back.

Before you do anything stupid in 5 minutes, ask yourself is it worth it... to lose something beautiful to the 5 minutes you will never get back.

S[he] Be[lie]ved

Boy sees girl. Boy falls in love. Boy courts the girl, now they're in a relationship. It was sweet and great in the beginning. Boy hears her words like music to the ear, her emotions are so cute, and boy loved her for who she is. Girl finds comfort in the presence of the boy. She could say and talk about anything and the boy would listen with addiction. She likes bumper stickers and the boy would always visit her Facebook page to see her collection.

A couple of months after that, boy starts to see the girl's flaws. Too many flaws. Now they're in each others head all the time. Her Facebook page are nothing but stupidity.

A few months after that, girl seems to be always making new mistakes. Boy always seems to be finding one. Girl tries hard to put the effort cause as the boy says, "Feels like I am the only one working on it." What a girl to do...

Girl wants to talk to boy. Boy tells her, "I am tired. Can we talk some other day?" Girl weeps in her heart. Girl discussed something she read on the news. Boy says, "Don't you have other things better to do?" Girl told him about a quote she read earlier. Boy replies, "That's so contradictory, stop reading immature childish things. You're influenced by them and ruining my image." What a girl to do.

All the movies that Boy likes watching contradicts to his matured beliefs. Movies that involved random casual sex scene, but it is alright to watch, as long as you're not influenced by them. It's alright to read porn actress who died of suffocation and tried it out after that. It's alright to laugh at teenagers who wanted to sleep around but it's not alright to read and post such immature quotes. They're just random ramblings.

Not the first time this happen...

See, this is the thing that I hate the most, that I have to leave my previous blog hanging in the middle because apparently to you, they are random ramblings and meant nothing at all. And from a man who knows what love is, you thought that I got the statement from an "immature teenage girl in US". now that's very smart and mature of you. So i have this new one, I am free to write what to me means something but to you are just rubbish... Even if I have 0 visits, really, i don't care either. It's better to have a freedom of expressing my feelings than making you think that I worshiped and are influenced by what those "immature US teenage girls" wrote. Cheers to you on that. Listen to yourself as you speak, you sound dumb. If you don't appreciate what I wrote, someday, God will send me someone who will... And just to be safe, it won't necessarily be someone who I will fall in love with like what your little head says. Wonder why I don't have Facebook or twitter, wonder no more. The same reason, anything I wrote in there would cost you your image. Very well then... I am unknown.